power vs potential

dazed
a static of rainfall outside the window
the tap/tap/tap of boredom
escapes from my fingertips
rousing me from thoughts so deep inside
that i cannot charm them back
for show and tell with my conscience

i decided to be happy today
(apply the secret)
... my will be done...

every action/reaction a decision
for me to make
(has this always been the case??)

.instinct be damned.

reset

we just keep on believing in true love
seeing hope in strangers
painting pictures of imaginary soul mates
with each new friendly face

a phase that nearly passed me by
(hero worship)

i'm a fool for dreaming -- i know better
and although i speak the cold reality,
these 'what ifs' storm my dreams
assaulting a lonely heart

marco?

marco

marco??


... marco...


it seems they've stopped looking for you.
sit there - chewing your fingertips into bloody nubs.

*perimiter check complete*


who needs to run away when you can disappear so effortlessly?

midnight ramblings

in moments, i find you've taken up residency in my mind
i wish you inspired me more
i would write the score
to a perfect love story for you and me
we could become
the you i see
and the me you think i should be
forever beginning happily

you tempt me with your cheshire grin
you're keeping secrets again
wear your veil of mystery - it suits you
while you bait me with cinnamon riddles
i'll be singing my way back home
to the tune of

allowing my scars to introduce themselves
this one went to the market
this one stayed home
and this one fell victim to the hope-filled dreams
of the child within

sinning again