i wish i still felt this way

the sky's waking up

my determination is waning
i cannot fight against this. against you.
your strength, unknown to you
your skill, unparalleled.

the fear in your eyes, in that brief moment - when i could have lied to us both - i could have let the hammer fall and broken both our hearts.
that -- has been my state of existence. for months.

but you do not deserve that. we have both suffered heartbreak.
i know you will see it again soon, but not at my hands.

never at my hands.

the sky is waking up.
and i have just wished you goodnight.
i miss you already.